I was a child in pain. For the first 60 years of my life, I experimented with numerous coping mechanisms to manage the deep-seated generational trauma I faced during my upbringing. While some of these strategies were unhealthy, none of them truly improved my self-esteem and feeling broken.
I dedicated myself to living life to its fullest, but I still often felt inadequate. I stayed committed to therapy, became a member of 12-Step Program, and Recovery Dharma, and continued my journey of self-discovery. 
When I turned 60, yes 60, the shit hit the fan. I put myself in a situation that triggered major trauma for me. I found myself confused about what was happening and why I felt overwhelmed. I believed I was making choices for myself, but I came to realize I knew very little about my true self. Throughout my life, I have tried to change into what I thought others desired, driven by a deep yearning for love and acceptance. However, what I failed to grasp was that the most important love and acceptance I needed was for myself.
Fortunately, the Universe intervened! Individuals entered my life who guided me on my healing journey. With the help of EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing) and ART (Accelerated Resolution Therapy), I could finally face my trauma. While it wasn’t my fault, embracing responsibility for my healing was crucial. Trauma no longer dictates my life or influences my choices and actions.
Throughout this journey, I've recognized that many individuals face difficulties in locating the resources and support necessary to navigate the fragmented mental health system. During times of vulnerability, gathering the energy and bravery to seek quality assistance can be a significant challenge. Research indicates that our mental state profoundly impacts our physical well-being; however, the medical community often treats them as separate entities rather than adopting a holistic approach. We need to unite and support one another as we navigate this complex system.
My goal is to promote positive awareness about mental health and to convey that healing is achievable. 25% of all proceeds, will be allocated to supporting individuals who are coping with trauma.
Celebrating our uniqueness and recognizing that each person encounters their own struggles can be incredibly empowering. It's crucial to realize that being "broken" does not mean one is irreparable. Like a mosaic, our fragmented pieces can be pieced together to create something beautiful and unique.
What I realize now is that I am worthy of love and belonging. I am not traveling this journey alone. My self-worth is defined by my perspective. Everything is energy, and we are all connected. Together, we possess the ability to heal!
You matter!